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I did something to my back. I don't know what, and I don't know if it's a muscle issue or a joint issue. My wrist has been hurting too. I'm just falling apart.

I went shopping on black friday for the first time ever today. It was totally not worth it. :(

the needle tears a hole

the old familiar sting.

Dex has vaccinations on Monday. He also turns 2 months old that day. I'm so very scared for him and my reactions. I about fainted when Patrick had his for kindergarten. What am I going to do when the fruit of my loins is screaming. I'm also irrationally worried about vaccine reactions. He's been sniffly and coughing too, so I'm worried having a slight cold will make the vaccine reactions worse.

Sucks to your vaccines. I wish there was some way around them.

He's serenading himself...

He coos. a lot. He also grunts, gives me weird looks, and all around kind of makes my day.

Can you guys tell he's been sleeping more? :D

Steve has a dentist appointment tomorrow. He has been a week-or-so-long-sufferer of SEVERE mouth pain. He says it comes and goes, and I say he needs to visit a dentist, especially since he has insurance and can go to a good one.

I think that Dex is officially on Steve's insurance. I'm glad. Now we don't have to wait at stupid crappy medical card doctors who call him Christiana. Seriously. :[

Also, this:
I'm sure you know which one is me, but this is me and some folks I pal'd around with circa 2000.

Yes, I do believe that is a 311 t-shirt.

Switch-er-oo

Dexter has his days and nights mixed up. I managed to bamboozle him into sleep for now, but who knows if it will last when I try to put him in his bed.

I'm definitely afraid I'm going to have to get rid of my iguana. I'm worried she's getting pushed to the back burner because we're occupied with Dex-type stuff for now. Dex-type stuff takes up a lot of my day. I apologize to anyone I was talking online to or talking on the phone to and ended up cutting the conversation short.

Dexter is up to 4 oz of formula. Depending on his mood, it now means there's 4-6 hours between feedings. Sometimes it's still every 3 hours, but he's putting more time between yelling at me to feed him and that means I'm closer to an entire night's sleep. :D

The days are passing by so fast, and I worry I'll wake up tomorrow and be 80 with no memories to show for it. I'm hoping it's because my days are broken up into 3-4 hour increments. Watching the clock has made the day go faster.

Good thought of the day: We bought the cutest xmas outfit for Dexter today, and I think I got all my xmas shopping for my nephews done! :D

Dwindling.

Money, patience, ability to accurately handle responsibility. Yeah. All dwindling.

Last night I gave him his bottle without shaking it up to mix all the formula and water together. Granted, it was 4am, and I had just woken up, but I still feel bad for basically giving him white colored water with a big ass clump of formula in it.

I need to find a new pediatrician. I need to figure out how exactly to change his formula, or if I need to. We still have 9/10 of a big ass container, plus an unopened container of the stuff he's got now. I definitely don't want him to suffer through any digestive issues, but I really don't want to waste close to $30. I wish I knew someone else who had just had a baby who gives them Enfamil. It drives me crazy, because he's only been eating this since he came out of me, and recently it's really seemed to disrupt any sense of regularity he's had. And (skip to the next paragraph if you'd rather not hear about poop) He seems really distressed the last few times he's pooped.

His pediatrician seems to not even remember him every time we see him. He called him Christian one time because of how they had Dexter's name written on his folder. Maybe I'm being picky, but if the doc doesn't even know his name, and keeps asking if I'm breastfeeding or bottle feeding, I think it's time to find someone with less of a workload or someone with a better memory.

Anyone want to come hold a baby so I can get my apartment in order?

Steve mentioned a christening to his dad a while back, and now his Dad is all hell bent on it happening before the end of the year. Is there something with catholics that makes it less holy if you're baptized after december? And anyways, my son is NOT going to be catholic. Sorry, any religion where you have to pay to get into heaven isn't for me thanks. If I knew how to have it done, I'd have him baptized non-denominationally. That way he can just pick when he gets older, and then everyone can come to a christening and enjoy it. I'm afraid Steve's dad's family won't show up unless I get him baptized catholic. I'm not catholic. My son isn't going to be catholic. Steve was baptized catholic, went to a catholic school and he just ended up being an atheist. I don't trust any religion where someone who beat on his wife or kids or stole things to buy drugs or some crap can just be forgiven because they told a priest every sunday that they "repented"

queries...

Do I really know when he's hungry, or am I just shoving a bottle in his face when nothing else works to quiet him? I wait the predesignated 3 hours between each bottle but my brother's girlfriend was saying he should be going 4 hours between bottles now. I was considering giving him more formula because he seemed hungry earlier. I think it would be hard to put him on the path of bad eating habits so early, but I worry. My eating habits are crap.

It also would be nice to have a little 4 hour nap between feedings at night. The closer we get to the goal of sleeping through the night, the better.


The problem with babies is the consensus is most often contradictory.

Ground Control to Major Mom:

My son's nose crinkles when he smiles, and somehow, that little fold of skin just kind of makes my day.